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I am scared of the dark. In the dark, I can have all sorts of dreams that I don't want to have. In the dark, I can't protect myself, and no one is around to know how to protect me.

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I noticed his yellow teeth, a bottom row of not-near white enamel that has an interesting sheen in the sun. How strange, that I had not before noticed the imperfection. They are uneven and jarring. I, who usually only see him at night, noticed the truth of the rows of teeth in the light of day.

He stood behind the bed of his truck, telling me he was leaving. Instead of thinking of Oregon, or my mother, or the four years we had been together, I thought of his teeth. The chip in the front tooth I had seen. He earned it in a fight he had in a club shortly after he first proposed. I had traveled to my Nana’s for the weekend and was called awake one night by a bail bondsman. He had been in a fight and was arrested. I let him spend the night in jail. He needed to learn a lesson and I needed the money for rent.

I think about how much I love his smile, but then realize that he only smiles in my mind. I haven’t seen a smile. So what is it that I love?

I Think I Can.

I'm including a picture of my sassy new 'do because it brings me joy. This is not the "salon styling" but is proof of the fact that I know how to do my hair. I think I have it in me to maintain this style.

Hello

Today I am grappling with my life and the fact that I have oodles of free time and nothing to do. In honor of that fact, I chose to customize a header for my blog and make it slightly more personal. I made my Lego figurine at Reasonably Clever. I decided that it would be best to make a superhero version of myself, as that is what I wish to be. I am slightly sad about the boxiness of my figure, but such is life in Lego-land. The main font is Rickles, found at dafont.com. Overall, happy. Although, overall, at present, I am sad.

On Facebook Friends

I am not friends with my students. I may be friendly, but I do not allow my students to become my Facebook friends until they are no longer my students. There are some friendships that I relish. A few days ago, I saw a status update of one of these student-friends. It brings me joy. For one, I am called a wise woman. For another, I taught a whole slew of really cool people something. Finally, THEY REMEMBERED IT!!!

:) I am funny.

Right Now

So, this is my life right now:

-I have been offered a job in Layton as a media specialist or English teacher. I did not even apply. I turned it down. The principal keeps calling me.

-I love my new Ford Escape. I feel like a queen when I drive it.

-My little brother is here to order $5 Threadless tees (sale ends tomorrow)

-I just finished reading Fablehaven 3

Up

Last night I went to a 3D showing of Pixar's newest flick, UP. It was beautiful. I found myself tearing up a bit, but at the same time I found it so incredibly life-affirming. It dealt with relationships and happiness and life choices and loss. And even though it had some sad moments, ultimately it was just so joyful. This is a movie I will definitely own, and one that I want to share with those I love. The title makes total sense to me now because the film is so darn uplifting!